Confused and All

December, 16^th 2013

1           > Parents’s wish

2           > Your wish

3           > Your ability

The only one problem in here is on number one.

My parents. They made me ended up into this program but after all they left all the choices on me. Which made me confused as hell.

If only I was in the program that I want, I won't be this confused right now, I mean everyday. I have all those ability in the other program but I just got into this program. I totally need help.

I asked my mom what faculty she wants me to take. But she just leave it up all for me. Isn’t it unfair ? She should at least have that one faculty for me to take. Well, she has. Medical faculty. Which I rejected in the first second I heard her desire.

I already have a choice. International relation. This is my wish faculty. But the faculty is just, not appropriate with my ability. I mean, lol, I’m such an introvert. Anti-social.

If it’s about my ability, English literature. But Mom forced it ! She just made this even hard. More confusing. I don’t know what to do. I was so sure about this one, but Mom forced it. I wont be a rebel for my parents, yes ?

Thinking about this seriously giving me headache. I think I’m the only one who has no intention to think about this future plan. Well, I do. I really do ! But how to make it easier ??? L

It’s a thousand times more confusing than my physic teacher.

My mentor just said, “If you’re really confused and about to die about this university thingy, have this thought and remember that all of your friends has the same confusion as you. Not only you.” This made me calm a bit.

We have the same pain at least.

Mom cant help that much, I know after this I have to ask Dad.

Still, I cant blame on them, right ?