Good Morning

August, 8th 2014
00:01


     Listening to The Canberries's Ode To My Family in your weakest moment and you will cry.
At least that's what happening to me right now. I don't know how I feel right now. There's too much. And it mixed. Makes me fluster.

     Minutes ago I was having fun spazzing over my oppas and it helped me to forgot my sadness a bit. But it doesnt happen too long. I was checking my bestfriends replies to my invitation to cinema tomorrow. They said they can't go tomorrow. They can't accompany me.  And it made my mood went down to the lowest level all of a sudden. Not that I could blame them for this. But all these feelings that mixed up makes me want me to be mad at everyone. I even shouted at mom when she asked me where's my brother went. I feel like shit.

     I was okay. Okay. At least that's what I think. But I know I just can't stop thinking of the 3rd failure that just happened to me even when I was having fun with my own world.
The fact that I'm the only one who failed in the selection made me feel worse. Everything messed up. It ended to a waste.

     And why the fuck no one reply my message. I need to talk to someone. I don't want to be comfort by anyone, but honestly I really do want. I can't bear the pain alone. I've through this so many times but today it's just, beyond my limit. I guess.

     I want to avoid everyone. Today, tomorrow, until I feel better. But who will keeping accompany me to run tomorrow? At this time I hate it I only have a few people who I feel comfortable with.

    And oh, look, he's online. Lmao, in such a midnight. Goodbye 첫사랑. I will never see you anymore.