Persepsi

April, 23rd 2016
22:51

Berlatih tetap berpikir positif itu... susah banget. 

Susah banget demi Tuhan dan alam semesta. 

Susah banget kalau yang numpuk di kepala masih banyak.

Susah banget kalau tekanan sana-sini masih mendominasi pikiran.

Susah banget kalau mikirin orang yang seharusnya ngerti malah menjadi yang paling gak ngerti sama sekali.

Susah banget kalau nyari tempat curhat pun harus mikir seribu kali dulu.

Susah banget kalau mikirin ternyata gak ada yang benar-benar bisa dijadiin tempat curhat.

Susah banget kalau mikirin ternyata tempat curhat banyak tapi kamunya aja yang gak mau membuka diri.

Susah banget kalau kamu mikirnya waktu orang lain terlalu berharga untuk dikorbanin ke kamu.

Susah banget kalau bersyukur aja rasanya susah.

Susah banget kalau mikirnya kamu terlalu menyedihkan untuk menjadi sedikit positif.

Ya ampun..

Otak kamu sudah terkontaminasi berapa lama?  

Kenapa bawaannya negatif semua?

Karena isinya negatif semua, maka ayo dipositifkan dulu.

Berlatih berpikir positif itu sebenarnya gampang.

Gampang kalau yang numpuk di kepala dikeluarin satu-satu.

Gampang kalau gak semua hal dianggap tekanan dalam diri. 

Gampang kalau orang yang gak ngerti dibuat mengerti.

Gampang kalau mikirnya semua hal bisa dijadiin tempat curhat. 

Gampang kalau egonya dikurangin dikit.

Gampang kalau mikir setidaknya 2% dari waktu seseorang pantas buat kamu.

Gampang kalau mikir segalanya yang dimiliki adalah lebih dari cukup. 

Gampang kalau mikirnya kamu juga bisa mengeluarkan aura positif dari dalam diri seperti orang lain.

Gampang kalau kamu gak baper terus.

Sebenarnya gampang.

Tapi dibuat susah.

Sebenarnya gak susah.

Tapi disusah-susahin.

Jika suatu hal yang kurang menyenangkan bisa kamu anggap positif, maka itu akan menjadi positif.

Semuanya hanyalah masalah persepsi.


 Jadi kamu mau ngapain sekarang?

A Drabble of Ruby & Tom

.

"I'm going to Vienna next friday."

"What?"

"I'm going to Vienna next friday."

"You?"

"Yes. Me. Tom. I clearly said it." 

"You? Why?"

"What do you mean why? You sound like I can't go there."

"I only asked why, you sensitive woman. That's so sudden."

"I'm not sensitive! And I'm not a woman, woman!"

"You just screamed like a girl. And put your finger down, that's rude."

"Two months we've known each other and I haven't ever heard you talking nice to me, that's sad."

"You're being rude with your action, and I'm with my words. We're even."

"Why do we always have to bicker everytime we talk? This is honestly so tiring."

"Because you always exaggerate everything I said and get hurt. Now tell me what are you doing in Vienna."

"Didn't know you're actually curious about it."

"Wipe that grin off of your face, ugly."

"Hey! Many people adore this face. It's a wonder why it doesn't work on you, though. Are you probably gay? -Ouch! Hey! Don't hit me. STop! Ah!" 

"It's because I'm still very sane to not fall for your stupid charm, you dumbass! It would be such a pain to like someone like you."

"You're so violent to me. My mom wouldn't like it if she knows her precious son is getting abused everyday by his very own girl friend."

"Well, yeah. Sorry for that, mama boy. I'll try not to hit your head next time if you say something stupid again. And stop whining. It's not like I hit you that hard." 

"In my defense, you hit me with a man power. You always do! Were you perhaps a man in your past life?! You were probably an executioner with toned muscles and six packs and a jumbo sword in your right hand ready to slash someone's head."

"Wow.. that would be so cool. And you're probably a spoiled little girl with pink stuffs who doesn't want to let go of her mommy's hand on her first day of school, HAHAHAHAHA- AKH! SHIT YOU'RE PUSHING ME?!!"

"WHY?! IT HURTS? I THOUGHT YOU'RE A MAN IN YOUR PAST LIFE. TAKE IT LIKE A MAN- AKH!"

"AISH! Why are you the guy in this when you're obviously acting like a total girl.."

"You hit me again.."

"Because you deserve it. I only ask one question and you're being too happy about it and teasing me. You're at fault."

"Ruby is a beautiful name but you really showed no representation about the beauty of it."

"Forget it. Let's not talk about your trip anymore."

"Okay, okay. I'll stop being annoying and tell you. Can't believe you're sulking right now-"

"I'm not sulking!"

"-so my father is being invited to join his boss annual trip and this time they'll go to Vienna. His boss said they have to bring one person with them just in case. And since Rex is preparing for his college entrance exam right now and Lisa is being the super busy vice president as always, I was choosen as the person to accompany my father, hehehe."

"Since you're the least busy among you three siblings."

"You make it sounds like I'm a jobless person."

"Sensitive as always, aren't you? Well, take your time. Maybe I also need to take a rest for a while while you're gone. I feel like getting old faster having your presence around me for the past months-"

"Hey!"

"-maybe I should start making plan of having fun without you. How long the trip will be?"

"Tch. As if it'll be fun without me. It's seven days. Take your time missing me and begging for my comeback after the third day I left you."

"I'm not gonna miss you, you're annoying and you're an asshole."

"Aww~ You sound like an upset girlfriend who doesn't want her boyfriend to leave her but too shy to admit it, heheh- OUCH! HEY!"

"In your dream, Mr. Tom. Find other girl to tell her that and she'll be all flustered and hot but that's definitely not me. And don't hug me again. You're smelly."

"You'll be the first one to run into me and hugging me tight when I come back anyway. You don't have to make it looks like you really want me disappear and never come back."

"Stop saying things like that. You make it sounds like I'm so desperate for you."

"But everyone act like that but you.."

"What?"

"What? Nothing. Anyway, what do you want me to get you from Vienna? I've asked my siblings and Lisa said she wants me to bring her home one of the hot guy there that she could date. How ridiculous."

"Then bring two. One for Lisa and one for me."

"No way! Anything but that. Come on, tell me."

"Pft, you said anything but it's not anything."

"I'm just worried they would be terrified if I bring them to someone so violent like you."

"Forget it! Just go and don't comeback anymore."

"At times like this you really look like a normal girl. Get sulky and looking cute.."

"For God's sake, stop talking to me like that. Other people might take it the wrong way if you keep talking like that."

"Aish! Why is it so hard talking with you?! Just answer my question and problem solved that's all."

"Tch, fine. Hmm..."

"........."

"........."

"........."

"Take a picture with the first receptionist you talk to in the hotel you stay at and send me the photo as a proof that you've done it."

".....W-what?"

"Ah, no no no. Print out the photo you take with them and give it to me once you arrived back here. That would be your souvenir for me."

"Wait-" 

"You have to tell the receptionist to smile widely and be sincere, alright? Make the photo looks good. Say 'cheese' if it's necessary."

"What????"

"What? You heard me right and clear."

"Are you kidding me???"

"....no?"

"WHY DO I HAVE TO TAKE A PICTURE WITH A HOTEL RECEPTIONIST IN A COUNTRY I BARELY KNOW??!"

"...because I told you to?.."

"WHY ARE YOU TELLING ME TO DO THAT??? WHY CAN'T YOU ASK SOMETHING MORE SIMPLE AND RATIONAL?!"

"It's rational, though?"

"FROM WHICH PART?"

"You don't want to do it?"

"No, I'm not doing it. It's embarrassing!"

"It's surprising hearing it from you. You're usually shameless."

"HEY!"

"Where's your confidence go, though? You usually are so confident doing everything. What is this?"

"B-but.. I heard people there are not that friendly, though.."

"Are they?"

"I don't know. Why are you so weird, though? Asking me something crazy this. You're more ridiculous than Lisa."  

"I thought it's not something so hard for you  to do. I'm surprised you refused to do it."

"Because it'll probably creep them out!"

"Well, that's my request for you. I don't know much about Vienna though, so I don't know what to ask to get. You want to do it or not, it's up to you."

"You're unbelievable!"

"Hmm.... You would be so cool if you do it. A very cool guy. Way cooler than who you already are. The coolest of all."

"I'm not falling for it. You suck!"

(Later on, on saturday morning in her bedroom, Ruby found herself laughing so hard at the picture Tom just sent her until her stomach hurted and eyes prickled with tears. It's been a long time since the last time she laughed that hard and she thought it feels nice).

 

Sedikit Gila dan Sedikit Random

Makassar, April, 15th 2016
17:19

  

     It's friday afternoon. 17:27 (Yeah, I spent 8 minutes to type this). It's the time where I usually snuggled on the bed in my bedroom after an exhausted day in campus (I only have one class in friday anyway but the long drive to the campus could make it exhausted even though I'm not the one driving, yeah). 

     With a pack of Pocky strawberry stick, a bottle of milk tea, potato chips that I haven't tasted, poor wifi (I'm not lucky today), and a friend of mine, I'm sitting in one of the seats in my new discovery place (a place to run to if I ever want to ditch class) doing my assignments that seems to never end. The sounds of vehicle's incessantly honking could be heard from this second floor and a ray of sunset dashing on my face, I probably turned orange colored right now. I'm in a good atmosphere right now. The air feels nice and a little bit hot, and everyone around me looks busy on their own that it makes a bit quiet despite the sound of those vehicles on the road. If I decided to take place inside the room earlier and sit there for hours, I must've felt nauseous right now.

     I'm not the aesthetic type of person. I don't take picture and make it look good. I don't usually take picture from the best angle, either. But adding some filters might help somehow. And that picture above is one of my best attempt. I would want to make the picture of Pocky looks tumblr-ish and aesthetically pleasing (yeah) but the quality of a camera takes a big part of making one and my phone camera is not the best type of camera, so. 

      I'm not the type to take picture of everything since the beginning anyway. If only my eyes could capture everything I see everyday and save it, that would be good. Eyes are the best camera, they said. But my memory isn't that good to keep them all saved in my head. That's why human made camera and the storage room card. To keep the memory lasts longer in a form of jpg. file.

     Few months ago in early 2016, I told myself that I would post at least two articles in my blog every months. And when I realized it's already a half month of April, I decided to write one today. Actually I couldn't manage to do it. But since I've finished with one of my assignments (and the rest are waiting in the line~), I decided to make one since I'm taking a rest now and the atmosphere is just this good and relaxing, kinda. 

      18:05 in the evening and the skies are starting to get dark. One of the employee here are cleaning the empty tables and the lamps are turned on. I'm still waiting for my friend to finish her essay (which I haven't done because my body and soul couldn't cooperate anymore). And several minutes ago I decided to take some pictures again, thanks boredom. 

     That's me. Lmao. With no expressions. And some ugly filters. But that's some kind of pictures that I like to take. Straight (almost emo) face and head tilted to the side, eyes focused on the phone screen. And filter addition adjusted with the emotion the moment the picture is taken. Some people don't want to take pretty pictures because they don't want to think that it's pretty but the others think it's not. Stupid kind of thought but it could be burdensome so it's better not to do it. Self-confidence is important.

     Other than that, I prefer to make silly faces when taking picture. It's funny and ugly at the same time. And I have to feel terrified many times (I hope it's not to the point to be terrorized). Why am I doing this to myself? It sounds sad to be silly alone.

But sometimes you just have to be stupid to humor yourself. Even though other people are better at it, it's not everytime I hang out with people. Gotta find a friend I can be silly with for real. I miss my high school best friends.

     My palms are so sweaty right now. I don't know why. I think I'm in the middle of wanting to go home or stay until late night, at least until this writing finished. But probably that's not the case. 

I don't exactly feel hot, because the weather is fine. But my palms are slippery. And I'm pretty sure it will get sticky when they dried up. I'm not gonna like it.

Maybe I need to go home. 

     It's 18:41 right now. It's dark. And it's starting to get cold. The vehicels are still very noisy. Will I get a public transportation at this hour, though? Is this why my palms are sweaty? No no no I don't get scared by that. I will still get one even if I go home up to 8 o'clock. 

     I'll post one more picture before I end this. Before I change my mind, hahaha.

      Good evening! Ppyong~!